B's life exploratorium.
It is currently June 2nd and I backdated this post because I am psychotic and am stringent on my "goals" for the year or something. What's interesting is how much I like to play by the rules but emotionally hate playing by the rules. Basically, I am comfortable with listening to authority/having rules but my… Continue reading The Living Dead
Currently: Typing away at my desk to seem busy. Hm. Questionable. As my plan here was to socialize and connect with human beans. The consistent need/habit of comparing myself to others is the fucking worst. Why do I do this to myself? I like seeing my thoughts written out, everything I say seems to escape… Continue reading Wasting Away
Ah, here we are again. At my online complaining festival, this blog that was supposed to serve as an empowering and educating platform for myself. Yet here we are to go at another round of how shitty I am feeling about my life. I don't even want to type this shit out but one of… Continue reading Apathetic Yet Emotional
A rant because I am whiny bitch. I am reading my previous blog post and I feel pretty much in the same place. To be fair, I spent the past month doing absolutely nothing, waddling in my sadness and staying "busy" with no intention or motive. I have read so many fucking self-help books on… Continue reading HOW AM I THE SAME?
...Like the stubble on my legs. I never know how to start things so yet again this will be a stream of consciousness. Also, because I am rushing this on the last day of the month. This year, another one of my goals is to blog every month. I think in addition to reflecting on… Continue reading ROUGH
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* sit and talk *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ song | https://soundcloud.com/pigsongs/speed-dial-ft-beabadoobee animation | https://vrv.co/series/GRDQ41V1Y/Bee-and-PuppyCat ・゜゜・ my september playlist | https://open.spotify.com/user/beatrice328/playlist/6gPQCJxRnA7d1KHImLXbJh?si=eNqnSLpFSSurTjsIVXHn4w thank you. ・゜゜・． https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xy8j7mVauN0
Now that my father has left the country again, I feel emotionally stable. Every time I am with one of my parents, depression becomes my best friend again. Not that depression will ever go away, she will keep returning to me as the waves to the shore, it is about being aware and recognizing if… Continue reading Describe Your Emotional State:
The strangest part about life is that it is cyclical, there are persistent life lessons that continue to ebb and flow into my consciousness. The fact that I am scared to be vulnerable with others, I overthink and am hard on myself, therefore, stunting any movement or growth at times, I do not acknowledge the… Continue reading Open Your Heart
Validation and self-worth is a common denominator amongst fellow humans. Because why else are we alive? Particularly in this information and technology age, where the current generation stays connected through social media. Apps that flood you with what everyone else is doing and not how we are all feeling. I had an unhealthy relationship with social media… Continue reading AUGUST Pensieve
Words, blocks of our language that are foundations for understanding each other's feelings and thoughts. Recently I am "finally" riding the wave of change in continuing to challenge myself to face my fears, embrace the unknown and be vulnerable. First let me address the use of "finally," it implies that there is a specific timeline… Continue reading Life is Pain
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